It feels good to feel good.

The last couple of days have been going pretty well (in the food department). I had a great trip to the grocery store and bought stuff to make my green smoothies again! Yummi. – I am drinking one right now- I am pretty sure I have posted the recipe on here before. But just in case I did not, I will add a link at the bottom of this post.
Today is really only day two of eating well, but I already feel great! It is a wonder why I fall back into bad habits, when those habits make me feel so gross!

At the moment, I am a stay at home mom. I work in the evenings while my fiance is home, because I wouldn’t be able to afford childcare during the day. Anyway, being home all day is exhausting in itself. It’s funny how doing nothing makes you more tired than running around all day. Or, maybe it is a different kind of tired. When I am eating lots of processed foods, I wake up in the morning and I just can’t get my day going. I don’t have enough energy to do anything. At one point, I was starting to think that something was really wrong with my health. Which, I guess there was. My body wasn’t getting the right nutrients, so it left me feeling tired and groggy.
So, like I said, it is only day two and I jumped out of bed this morning, and got started with my day right away. That hasn’t happened in awhile. It feels good to feel good.

My biggest battle is working out. I can never get motivated. I have tried different things and nothing seems to hold my interest. I am lazy when it comes to working out. 😦
I like to run, but running while pushing a stroller is no fun task! I guess I will just have to force myself to do something. Even walking is better than nothing. My goal is to be more active than I was the previous day. We will see how this goes. 🙂

This is the recipe that I have been using. I use to drink it every single morning. I will be doing that again starting today. I have tweaked the recipe a little.

For my smoothie recipe I do:
Green Tea (Matcha preferred)
A handful of spinach
A handful of kale
1/2 cucumber
1 1/2 celery sticks
1/2 a lemon
1 banana
1/2 a fruit (today I did mango because it was on sale)
Tumeric and Ginger
A touch of honey for sweetness if needed.

^ Blend (in blender!) everything in that order so that the smoothie does not turn out gritty.
Obviously you can add whatever you want to it. Sometimes I do avocado and chia seeds, sometimes I do protein powder. It just depends on the day, and what I have planned for my meals later on during the day. 🙂
I hope you try this recipe. I promise, you will not be disappointed! Even my two year old loves it. If you do try it, let me know what you thought! Or if you found any good things to add to it! 🙂



Back to square one

It’s been awhile! I fell off the wagon and started eating like crap again. Once I lose control, I am done for. I really am an addict. A sugar addict. A food addict. A comfort food addict. Whatever you want to name it, it’s all the same. I know my last post talked about having trouble eating healthy at someone else’s home. Well, that is pretty much what happened. I stayed at a family members home, and we pretty much went out to eat and ordered food every night (because that is what they do every day) and I could not avoid temptation! The thought of a juicy cheeseburger and fries was all I needed to give in to temptation. It’s always the same story. “One more yummy greasy meal won’t hurt”… Well, when you add that up to five yummy, greasy meals, that is a lot of weight you’re putting on. So then comes my thought.. is it worth it? Is that one food that is your down fall really even worth it? Is taking a bite of that cheeseburger or that slice of pizza more important than your health, or fitting into that tight shorts this summer? It really isn’t. So why do we continue to make these bad decisions?! Whatever the reason, it needs to stop. I need to learn to be stronger than that. Giving in is not worth it.

I am pretty sure I have already mentioned that I had lost about 20 LBS a couple Winters ago. It was amazing!!! I felt so great about myself and I went down a couple pants sizes! I bought two pairs of size 11 jeans from Hollister – only one size up from the size I use to wear- and a pair of cute black and white shorts from Target. I was so excited about my new pants, and I couldn’t wait to keep losing weight and fitting into even smaller clothes. Well, as usual, I fell off the wagon. Gave into temptation. In less than a year, a gained all of that weight back. Plus some. Those cute little shorts don’t even button, and they are so tight on my legs. I’m not even sure how they fit me before. The Hollister jeans won’t even go up past my butt. I’m not sure how I fit in those either. Every time I try those pants on, it reminds me how much I failed myself. Imagine where I could be right now if I would have kept it up! If I would have continued to eat healthy and work out! I would look incredible right now!! That is the kind of thing that keeps me motivated. Maybe I should just hang those shorts on the wall to remind myself that I can get back to that size… and smaller! I think I will give that a shot. Try some visual motivational photos and items. 🙂
I posted a picture above (on the left is me after I lost the 20lbs. The photo on the right is me now.)


So there you have it. This will be my hundredth time trying again. I guess I need to take it slow. Take it one day at a time. Keep myself motivated, and never give into temptation. Let’s see how this goes.
I am going to look up some new recipes and make a well thought out, healthy grocery list and head to the store. Thank you for reading. 🙂

Day 15

Today is the beginning of week 3! Wohoo.
I have been slacking in the working out department, but I’ve been doing pretty well when it comes to eating. I have gotten to the point where I have decided a piece of pizza sounds good (or two), but it didn’t unravel everything I have been doing. I am still deciding to eat healthy, but after a long day of walking around downtown on Saturday, I decided like I deserved some pizza. It wasn’t my best decision, but hey, you only live once. 😉
Thus far, my biggest struggle has been eating at other people’s homes.  One reason eating at someone else’s home is difficult is because I do not want to be rude! (and self control plays into it a little too lol) But, if someone went out of their way to make dinner or order dinner for me, I don’t want to say “Oh, can I just have a salad?” Because then they will think I am rude or just being difficult.
That leads me into the second reason why its difficult eating at someone else’s home.
Reason two. A lot of my family just doesn’t understand (or care). They think that I am being a pain in the ass, or snooty because I do not want to eat junk.
Take my step mom for example. She thinks that everything is bad for you, so why not just eat what you want. Also, she says that eating healthy is too expensive. Yes, in the beginning it seems like it is too expensive, but when you learn to eat smaller portions (because most of us do not) you will not go through food as quickly. Also, you can grow a garden!! I can not wait to grow my own fruits and veggies one day!
Anyway, when friends or family feel negatively toward your lifestyle change, it just makes it so much harder to make it work. I still manage to make it work, but it would just be nice if everyone could be understanding. The sad thing is, I know I am not the only one who is in this situation. My best friend goes through the same exact thing with her family. But through it all, we still manage to stay strong and not let other opinions affect us.
I would have to say that the thing that has been keeping me going for 15 days is all of my supporters! Surrounding myself with others that eat healthy and exercise has made all the difference, because I know that I am not alone, and if I need someone to talk to or vent to, I know that they are they and they understand! 🙂

“Weight loss is not a physical challenge. It is a mental one” – Author Unknown


Day 5

I have been noticed that most Americans do not really know what healthy food is. The food industry has given us so much information and confused us, that we do not know which way is up. They tell us that we need to eat “LOW FAT” and “SUGAR FREE” and “DIET” foods. These foods are no healthier for you than eating a regular bowl of spaghetti. It is ALL bad!
These foods have aspartame, which is an artificial sweetener. It causes loss of brain cells. They also have an increased amount of sugar. Sugar is addictive and obviously, causes weight gain. There is a whole list of side effects of sugar.
I am not a nutritionist, I have only learned from what I have read and watched on documentaries over the years.
I am also guilty of eating bad foods, but I have made a promise to myself to change my eating habits. I owe it to myself and my family to be a healthier and better me.
The reason I am writing this post is because I know people are always trying to lose weight, and trying to eat healthy, but they are being so mislead by what is healthy and what is not healthy!
If you want to lose weight or just become healthy, you NEED to cut out the sugar ! (that includes bread. bread turns into sugar, which turns into fat)
Our bodies are not meant to handle all of this sugar and processed foods!
We need to take control of our health and start making healthier food choices. It is a process and we’re not perfect, I know it is easier to choose convenient fast foods, and it’s easier to just give your child the candy they are crying for, but we can slowly take the sugar out of our daily meals until we are sugar free!

Okay so, here is an update on how I am doing! Today is day three of sugar, dairy and wheat free. Let’s just say, my body is definitely cleaning itself out!! It has been a little bit of a tough day. I was really nauseous and lightheaded this morning,  and my stomach was hurting. But, these are all classic symptoms of gluten withdraw. Yes, withdraws from gluten (and sugar) is a REAL thing! I have looked it up and read about it on numerous sites. As the day progresses, I am feeling much better than I was this morning. Like they say “If you’re going to do the crime, you’ve gotta pay the time.” I have been eating wheat every day for just about every meal. My body has  A LOT to get rid of! I can’t wait to see how I feel in a few weeks. I am hoping to have even more energy and not feel as nauseous without my bread! I am taking this day by day and blog by blog. 🙂

“Healthy is not a goal. It is a way of life.”Author Unknown

Day 4

Today is day four of my lifestyle CHANGE (day two of eating healthy). I went to the grocery store last night and bought only healthy foods. The items in my grocery cart consisted of …
coconut oil, sunflower, chia and flax seeds, lots of veggies, berries, beef, chicken, quinoa, brown rice and natural peanut butter.

Yesterday was my first day sugar, salt, wheat and dairy free. Today was my first day adding A LOT of veggies into my meals. Even though I don’t look different yet, I sure do feel different. I feel much more confident because I know that I am being the best me I can be. I know that I am putting healthy foods into my body. I even feel less stressed than I usually do. Probably because my happiness and positivity is outweighing everything else. 🙂

During my downtime yesterday, I watched a documentary. For all of my Netflix addicts (so basically everyone) if you are looking for a motivational video, I highly recommend Hungry For Change.  I really enjoyed this documentary, and I loved the way they explained everything so that it was very easy to understand. One of my favorite quotes from this documentary is “We are not eating food anymore. We are eating food like products.”Dr. Alejandro Junger
I don’t know about you, but that one sentence put everything into prospective for me. I thought “wow. that is so true. what have I been putting in my body? and why do I put it into my body?” Hungry For Change gave me that extra push to really say no to sugars and processed foods.


Some of your favorite foods can be transformed into healthier versions. As I said before, I loooove hamburgers. I do not know why I had never thought of this before, but instead of eating a burger on a bun, I just wrap it in lettuce. I promise you that you will not be missing out! It tastes just the same! I was skeptical at first, just like I know you are too, but I can now say that I will never eat a hamburger with a bun ever again! 🙂
Another yummy food is brown rice with coconut oil and lots of cilantro! (no salt) Even my kiddos like it. It is fun to experiment and find new health foods that you can be proud to say you made. 🙂

My before photo

Tonight, I am posting my “before” photo that I took a few days ago. In a few months, I will  post an update photo and so on.
I am so excited for this journey, and I am grateful for everyone’s support! If you are looking to make a lifestyle change, there is no time like the present! (Below I have posted a photo that I found on google. It will help you get started, so that you will be on your way to a new, improved and healthy you!)

In honor of Hungry For Change, I will end with this…
“As I improved my diet, I started to learn to love myself- probably for the first time ever.” Frank Ferrante



Day Two

Day two was a successful failure. I started my morning off great with a two mile walk/jog/run this morning and I did a 20 min Jillian Michaels workout video!       BUUUT…. I am trying to get rid of all of the crappy foods in my pantry before I go grocery shopping for more food. (Throwing it away is easier said than done, because like most people, money is tight right now) So, I binged on ravioli tonight :0. I know, I know. It’s only day two. BUT, I am considering that my ‘farewell to pasta’ meal. 🙂 One last hoorah before I make a lifestyle change… again.

Two years ago, I had my son. I weighed over 200lbs. After about three months, I decided that it was time for a change. I started running on the treadmill every day, and I slowly changed the way I ate. I started off by not eating ANYTHING with high fructose corn syrup. No added sNugars. I would have one slice of bread in the morning. After I got the hang of that, I increased my healthy fats, and made sure to have raw veggies and cooked veggies on my dinner plate each night. I also went as far as to not eat fruit past a certain time. After about 4 months, I had lost 25 lbs. But then, I just stopped losing weight. I was obsessed with the scale. I weighed myself every morning and every night. I started to see that my weight was increasing more and more each day. As you could imagine, that was terrifying! (and yes, I know that muscle weighs more than fat). But I was just so discouraged. I think it was the day I ate a cupcake at work.. that was the day that I lost control again. I feel like a drug addict. I was doing so well, but that one moment of tasting the sweet sugar on my lips, was about to undo everything I had worked so hard to accomplish. Needless to say, it is a little over a year later and I have gained all of that weight back. I KNOW that if I do not make a lifestyle change now, then I am going to slowly work my way up to an extremely unhealthy weight.

Therefore, when I go to the store (hopefully tomorrow) I am going back to my old ways! No more crappy foods! I will not give into processed, sugary “foods”. I will eat food that is good for my body, because I want to be a healthier and happier me!

“Eat to live, do not live to eat.” – author unknown

Day One

If by some miracle, you are reading this blog, then welcome! You are probably the only one. This blog is meant to be kind of a journal/motivational strategy for myself.

I, Lauren, am an addict. My addiction is sugar. I am a slave to processed foods.

After trying to make a lifestyle change several times, I always find my way back to the comfort of sugars and carbohydrates. I love pasta and cheese. (As you could probably guess, lasagna is my favorite) I could pretty much eat pasta and hamburgers every day. That is why I weigh around 190, which is the most I have ever weighed. (I haven’t weighed myself in the past couple of months because I left my scale behind when I moved.)

Anyway, I have had enough! I am tired of being overweight. I am tired of never having energy. I am tired of never being able to find anything to wear because of my stomach and big boobs. I want to be able to wear a plain white t-shirt and jeans, and look good wearing it! That is my goal. A lot of people say “love yourself. you’re beautiful the way you are.” Yes, I know that I am beautiful and I do love myself (most days) but that doesn’t mean that I don’t need/want to lose weight and live a healthier lifestyle.

As of this afternoon (I had pizza for breakfast 😦 ) I am going to be more active, and eat healthier. I am making a lifestyle change. I want to be a better me.

So… this is my journey. I am only human, and I may have bad days, but that is no reason to give up! This blog is about being honest with myself and hoping that it helps keep me on track. Encouragement is welcome. 🙂

I will end with my favorite motivational quote.                                                                       “Eat to live, don’t live to eat.” – author unknown